I had a heart calcium score test done where coronary arteries are scanned to show any potential buildup that may lead to a heart attack or stroke in the near future
the results…not optimum
not optimal
definitely not optimistic
I was driving home when I got the notification
having only left the lab ten minutes prior
I knew that zero was a good score
meaning no blockage whatsoever
anything from 1 to 100 wasn’t good, but something to keep an eye on
with over 300 resulting in the likelihood
of a major cardiac event in the next 5 years
my score…876.82
I appeared to be a walking timebomb
of course I searched and scoured
everything available online
if the calcification doesn’t completely
shut off the flow of blood and kill me
there’s always a chance a softer piece
could break off and cause a heart attack, stroke, or blood clot – resulting in….
I read that nicotine calcifies the coronary
arteries and I’ve been a heavy user for years
recently on strong milligram pouches
two days after my test I put nicotine down
only the occasional pipe and cigar now
the instinct in me doesn’t like the idea of
possibly dying 10, 20, or 30 years before
someone with no heart issues
the realist in me realizes it’s natural and
such a non-event in the ‘scheme of things’
when a person is faced with a grim prognosis
there are three ways to handle it
try to reverse it to the best of your ability
continue doing everything the same
or completely fall off the deep end and disregard health and any concern
because all is lost — NO HOPE
I’m trying to go with the first option and
hang around as long as possible
my wife, on the other hand, was shocked
she said, “I thought you would finally hop that train and get a heroin addiction.
Gloomy Forebodings 