(Not the best start)
it is inconceivable to feel joyous
when your wife says that
she would rather die than
experience the pain that she feels
a profound and deep-rooted
sadness envelopes my being
as the one I love can only
get out of bed to constantly
empty her bowels or vomit
the feast I am cooking
will be eaten solely by me
as she can not keep anything down
even the smell which is exquisite
makes her nauseous and ill
constant fever, sweats, and
gut wrenching misery plague her
neither the meal nor whiskey
taste as they should
my somber heart weeps
for this once tenacious
independent woman tormented
by this heinous and malicious disease
I wish I could share the pain
to give even a sliver of relief
I feel so hopeless
yet hopeful
for a
‘happy’ new year